gak mau tidur.

i don't want to sleep.
every night all i do is torturing myself with pride and anger.
and guilt.
it's bothering me.

and now i decided not to sleep.
i don't want to.
i don't want to think clear.
as long as i'm not crying.
as long as i can do what i want.
as long as i don't cry.

i don't want to think.
i just want to be in the crowd.
blend
so i don't have to think about myself.

i don't care about the rest of that shit

i'm trying to move on

with anyone

ANYONE!